(Yosemite) Is Always A Good Idea
Exactly an year ago, I forwarded you this entry where I poured my heart out and tried to live a better life as a better lover. An year later now, things have shifted again; to a point that I am so exhausted from it. People fall in love, then they retreat with a broken heart, and they, of course, break somebody else's heart. Its a horrendous cycle, yet it is a life long practice until we - I hate to use the term of cliché: "the right one", - figure out the best way to connect with people with the right attitude. The aforementioned attitude I am talking about is not so literal, I am talking about being true to yourself and really understand how a relationship should work, in order to adjust yourself to the pattern and take the whole package of being in a relationship. That, my friend, includes a occasional broken-heart. It has to be a mutual feeling and understanding between you and your partner. Never sacrifice or belittle yourself to fit into it; let it tango and if both of you have the right attitude towards each other and the goal in life, it will mellow out. Nothing should be forced; if it's meant to happen, the universe will show you how. Something like, when you met him/her, and time meant nothing. Things happened quickly but in a natural way. It may develop in a different way, but it feels right.
Who are we as a evolving individual is evaluating everyday, so how can I render and present it here in a modest manner was my biggest concern. I hope I make enough sense. In the end of the day, nobody ever changes, they just grow into a different direction which is maybe the opposite of ours - and that is okay. The most important thing is to know yourself first. Cliché again, I know. But to know what you really need in a relationship and what you can give and contribute in a relationship is SO crucial that I know exactly when to cut it with no doubt, no shame, and no regrets. If you learn how to love and trust yourself, you'll meet someone who will treat you the way you deserve. And when you do, love as much as you can.